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This broke my heart open. I was nomadic for nearly 8 years of my life and “settled down” last year. I go back and forth between gratitude and regret. There’s so much life to experience elsewhere, but there’s beauty in consistency too — at least that’s what I tell myself to stay sane. I miss the sadness of the goodbyes that you’ve written about; there’s something special about them. But the thought of saying goodbye to my current life makes me want to vomit, too. Anyway, this gave me a lot to think and reflect and write about. Thank you ❤️

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Eight years!!! What a treasure trove of hellos and goodbyes. It’s been less than 1.5 years for me and I’m thinking I may not have it in me much longer. How beautiful that you’ve created a new life that you don’t want to run away from, though. Glad I could bring you back for a bit ♥️

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Sofia and Bulgaria get under your skin and never leave. So happy you got to experience them and know them as a home!

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this made me sob. for somebody who can't stay in one place for too long, i'm terrible with leaving.

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Sobbing along with you today. It’s such an interesting reality, the desire to both go and stay.

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I love this Zefan, especially your voice- it’s comes through so beautifully. I too hate goodbyes, and cry every time we board a plane leaving our adventure.

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Thank you, Linds 💛 I’m so comforted by all the people equally bad at goodbyes!

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A beautiful reminder that it’s always the people that make a place a home <3 thank you Zefan!

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So cool you did a work exchange!

I am bad at goodbyes too. I am so sensitive

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It is always so hard! Met someone the other day who said, “I just don’t get attached” and I was so confused/jealous haha

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Goosebumps...

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🥹

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A dear friend and I once locked eyes as a gathering we were attending was coming to a close. She whispered, "it's always hard when the party ends." We've been kindreds ever since. Sounds like you may be part of that karass. Safe journeys to your next home.

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Completely in awe of this moment — it captures it all perfectly. What an amazing friendship ♥️

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Loved this! Very much resonates with my own experience as a globetrotter for much of my life. The gift of this life is that home indeed becomes a more expansive, multihued place - and you capture that notion perfectly here!

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That is the beautiful part! The idea of home changes completely. I’m so glad this resonates with those of us that have had to live these goodbyes over and over ♥️

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Love this! You've captured my sentiments perfectly, even when considering a short 2 week vacation. What's keeping me from the digital nomad lifestyle is knowing that I get attached to places so easily and saying goodbye would rip me apart. But history proves that we always adapt. The first step is daunting, yet once in motion, we remember we've done this before.

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I feel you! Goodbyes are harder for me than everyone else, for sure. It's been incredible to see how many places I've been able to fall in love with, though. Trying to remember what you've said - once in motion, we'll be ok!

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"Unencumbered by who you should be, you reveal hidden secrets and in-process truths — because if they judge you for it, you’ll never see them again, and if they love you for it, you’ve found a kindred soul in this unknown place." -- this part! I try to use this as my guiding force when traveling or even just exploring my city. It takes the pressure off. Allows me to lean into the journey and release the need to control the outcome. I love how you put into words that we have so much to gain here and much less to lose than we may have intitially thought.

Beautiful one, Zefan. Always grateful to spend time with you, your world, and your words.

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It’s amazing seeing who you will be when nobody is telling you who to be. Always so grateful with how deeply you look at my words, Shivani ♥️

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